Maria

When I found out I was pregnant, I panicked and immediately thought about how I would be a disappointment to my parents if they were to find out that I was pregnant out of marriage. At that moment, my boyfriend and I decided that abortion could be a possible solution. I was raised in a Christian household and I attended church regularly so abortion was something that I’d always been against, or so I thought.

After I found out I was pregnant, I went online to learn more about abortion, and also to seek people’s viewpoint on this topic. I knew that abortion was wrong, but for some reason I made myself believe that the abortion pill was not morally wrong. I went as far as going to the Bible to find any scripture that specifically spoke about abortion so I could stop myself. I was very undecided about abortion, but the clock was ticking and I decided that if I were in the timeframe allowed for the abortion pill, I would take the pill, but if I was past that timeframe, I would not chose to proceed to the surgical method. I desperately wanted to find out how far along I was, but when I called around, I was told that an ultrasound was only given upon a doctor’s order. I decided to make an appointment at Planned Parenthood and I was very anxious to find out how far along I was. I was told that I was 4 weeks pregnant. The nurse then took me to a room where she handed me Mifepristone (the first abortion pill). Everything was happening too fast; my head was all over the place. I was only 4 weeks and I still had 5 weeks to think about this choice, and right in front of me was a nurse waiting for me to take the pill. I couldn’t do it. I thought it’d be such a shame to take the pill, knowing I had a few more weeks to thoroughly think about this.

When I walked out of the clinic, I saw a pamphlet on the parking lot that spoke against abortion and I picked it up. I glanced at it but didn’t thoroughly read it and I placed it in my car. I went home and abortion was still on my mind. Everyday I’d go online to read people’s opinion on this matter and to do research on this topic. A lot of sites stated that at this stage, the embryo was still not considered human. I knew time was running out and I decided that this time I’d take the pill and I told myself that there’d be no going back; I would take the pill. I remember praying to God and telling Him about my thoughts and intentions and how my mind was set and nothing could stop me because I already decided that this time I’d take the pill. I prayed that He’d do something to stop me because I wasn’t going to stop. I made an appointment once again at Planned Parenthood. When I went to Planned Parenthood for the second time, I wanted to see the ultrasound and the nurse told me that it was just a blob and there was no heartbeat yet. When it was time to take the pill, I quickly took it without thinking too much and before I could possibly change my mind.

As I walked to the car, I was teary and I tried my best not to think about what I had done. In the car, I saw the pamphlet I had picked up a few weeks ago and in it was a scripture from the Bible that said “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you” (Jeremiah 1:5). I felt as if that scripture could’ve made the difference in my decision, but it was all too late. I was so broken. My boyfriend suggested I try to throw up but I doubted that would work. I still had to pick up the next set of pills to continue the abortion process. I regretted my decision. It was so difficult entering the pharmacy. When I went home I immediately went online hoping that there’d be something that could be done. Thankfully, I found the abortion pill reversal website and a nurse answered and she was so kind and willing to help. She told me to go the following day to a nearby clinic. The following day, I went to the clinic. The doctor checked me and found a strong heartbeat and informed me I was 5 weeks pregnant, not 4. I was given the progesterone treatment.

Throughout my pregnancy, I never had any complications and in every checkup, I was told everything looked fine. I delivered a beautiful healthy girl in December 2014. My parents are beyond happy and are in love with this little girl. I have been given a second chance and I know that God showed His mercy on me and gifted me this precious little girl.